| I'll just cry till it doesnt hurt anymore |
[Sunday
October 2nd, 2005
4:12am] |
I went to homecoming at Robert E. Lee, Friday. My first time taking a date to a dance(lol im a loser). A gay guy gave me a really long rose. They played a bunch of rap I didn't know. I got another guitar. I havent called Cameron in two days, he's probably ripping his hair out, heh. It was Jody's last day at Lee. When I left her in the office to fill out her drop form, I started to cry. I wish I could go back. I feel so dead here. I can't even play my guitar or write poems anymore. A guy named david gave me his number, besides tracey he's probably the closest thing I've got to a friend. I cried on someones shoulder, it helped a little. I wish krysia was here. Nothing hurts worse. And everybody keeps telling me that they lost friends too. but FUCK YOU IT'S KRYSIA GOD DAMMIT. Thats my whole life in indiana. She was the only person I hung out with on the weekends. The first peron I've ever loved or even cared for. My only family. The only reason I'm so outgoing is cause of her.
But at least shes happy there.
bye guys
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[Monday
September 5th, 2005
2:23pm] |
can someone please tell me if Krysia, Iman, and Ashley are ok and maybe where they are. I miss you guys Im in a rented house in baton rouge and im going to school here now. My house is flooded, I went to it yesterday(the carpet makes a squishy sound) the walls are ruined, trees are down everywhere, mold is growing, and everything smells like sewage.
keep in touch 1 504 812 1506
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[Thursday
August 18th, 2005
2:46pm] |
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So I'm in my dad's office right now....dont ask. IM SO BORED. anyway i got back from my job interview at winn dixie. I did good, and I got the job, YaY! LIfe is actually getting better! Me and Cameron are getting closer, hes getting his car soon, my mom is gone on a business trip(the house is so quite, go figure), I got a job which means I dont have to stay home, cheerleading is getting better, and I might be getting a new pet(HOPEFULLY AN AFRICAN PIGMI HEDGEHOG!!!!!). Yall dont understand how much I want a pet of my own. It might take care of my loneliness problem and I want something I can take care of and love. I just realized how sad that sounded but ya.
...Skeleton Key is a good movie...and Hot Hot Heat is a pretty awesome band.
according to Brian from Kemo for Emo Im his #1 fan, he probably only talks to me because of my butt *sigh* ~.~
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[Wednesday
August 3rd, 2005
12:37pm] |
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So...
I am extremely bored. We have three weeks left of freedom. Me and Cameron were having problems, but I think it's getting better now(eventho he hurt me really badly last night). Sean might be leaving me, but I hope he'll be okay where he is going. I want to hang out with Iman and Krysia badly. I can't wait to see Christine. I want to start going to Pheonix again. I feel like going dancing? Im in love with THE MATCHES. I want to go shopping for more cds. Im getting a lame babysitting job. I feel like a homo with this layout ygilhsebfyhfjfu!
Well thats about it you guys
xoxoxoxoxo
Shes a can of mixed nuts
With a damn nice butt(LOL iman)
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[Saturday
July 30th, 2005
8:56pm] |
I hate the way you look at me
With tear filled eyes
And a sorrow filled heart
Keep it up
Maybe I'll be so in over my head
I could bury myself alive
With confusion or guilt
Either way I'll cry myself awake
And bury my head in the pillow
I'll scream so loud that no one can hear me
I'll just take myself for grantite
Just like everybody else does
Cause "Just what everybody else does"
Seems to be the style these days
I pulled a star from heaven
But it faded away
Just like all stars do with time
..or ignorance
Maybe we can all just say "I'm not okay"
Cause that's what we heard on mtv
You must not be very good at math
You don't even know what a real problem is
You think it's funny?
That I never laugh
You think it's sad?
That I never cry
I could give a fuck what you think
At least
Thats what everybody else says.
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[Friday
July 29th, 2005
9:02pm] |
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Hey, Im in Dallas right now and only three people know I'm here. Don't really think anyone will notice. I got back from cheer camp and it basically sucked. I might be in a band soon. I'll be the singer, eventhough I can't sing. But at least its somthing to keep my mind off other things. I really want to talk to Iman. I miss her a lot, but I have no way to talk to her. I wrote two poems today. I'll update them later. I want to runaway.
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[Sunday
July 17th, 2005
10:54pm] |
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TRA LA LA LA LA
I'll be a camp counsler tomorrow. I'll be back friday. I did somthing bad today. Cameron will be mad. I made up a song. It's ok. My new friend Sean will try to get me to be the singer of this band. I think that's cool. Me and Sean have problems. I ate turkey legs today. They were alive. On Monday I have cheer camp. Isn't that gay. Wow it's annoying talking like this. I hope Krysia makes this volleyball team. I'm proud of her. No one likes my mom. She knows that. That's why she hates every one. That includes me the most. I wish I was free. I am naked. Well, I have a towel on. I want to never wear clothes. I think that is illegal. I love Cameron. Why am I typing everything that pops in my head. Mexicans are funny. I like Vendetta Red. They are cool. I wish I didn't make everyone hate me. I hate me. I bet you don't care. You should stop reading then. I love you. I'm kinda hungry. Nevermind I lied. This is really boring. My livejournal is really pointless. I guess everybody's is. Life is kinda pointless. I'm not afraid to die. But oh well.
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[Wednesday
June 15th, 2005
12:19pm] |
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LOL yesterday me, Krysia, Hala, Mark(without his banana=( ), Patrick, and some random kids that were following us all went to the gas station down my street. LOL The keep it fresh guy was there, and I already had a cup from the coke I just drunk so I went up to the Icee Machine and filled it to the top...Hala made me do it i swear. The keep it fresh guy didn't even notice untill he was like....did you have that before and i was like YES! and i ran outlol....I thought he wouldnt care since he's paid for my gum like three times! I felt dizzy all day after that, I don't know what happened, but i couldn't see straight. But anyway I went to Hala's house and everyone else left us. We went back to Krysia's house and watched Bride of Chucky and Cat in the Hat... lol that's kind of some random movies. Then, Hala left us, and I cried. Me and Krysia were still up at like 3 in the morning, so we decided to go walking. Krysia tried to write on everything with my oversized pen(eventho you can't write on sidewalk with pen)....Krysia is soooo bad ass! Later, I call Cameron and he gets mad at me and hangs up on me about three times. We always get in fights when we haven't seen eachother for a while. We said some things we didn't mean and we felt bad about it, so we made up. I hate when we fight, but at least it gets some things out.
btw IM GOING TO HOUSTON in a coouple of weeks and I'm bringing Krysia muhahaha
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[Saturday
June 11th, 2005
12:52pm] |
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[Friday
June 10th, 2005
2:59pm] |
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It'sNotASideEffectofTheCocaine. IAmThinkingItMustBeLove |
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Yesterday was me and Cameron's 2nd month anniversary. To yall that may not seem like a long time, but for me, it feels like I've known him forever. Just hearing him say "I love you" makes a bad day turn into something to live for. He thinks like no one else, and everything about him is beautiful. Living so far apart from him, just tests what we would do just to see eachother. I am the luckiest girl alive.
Cameron, I love you.
why can you read me like no one else?
I hide behind these words
but I'm coming out
I wish I kept them behind my tongue
I hide behind these words
but I'm coming out
put your hand between
an aching head and an aching world
we'll make them so jealous
we'll make them hate us
an aching head and an aching world
we'll make them so jealous
we'll make them so jealous
all the ways you make my stomach turn
and all the long drives
with my friends blur
and I wish I kept them inside my mind
I hide behind these words
and think of all the places
where you've been lost
and then found...out
in between my sheets
in between the rights and the wrongs
put your hand between
an aching head and an aching world
we'll make them so jealous
we'll make them hate us
aching head and an aching world
think of all the places
where you've been lost and found...out
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[Sunday
June 5th, 2005
3:59pm] |
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Time to introduce... ME!(lol krysia)
So its summer.., time for all us white people to whip out our 1,000 spf sun screen! YES!
Madagascar is the best movie ever, I am so obsessed with those penguins...they make me so hot!
I bought this really pimp hat. It makes me look like I've been slappin hoes(not like I dont already or anything)!
So anyway...Phil Collins is Hot like Fiya
(say fiya at the end every time you describe things, it makes you seem so cool.
Ex. I want an oreo like fiya, when rabid badgers attack your head it hurts like fiya.
See what I mean, pretty cool, huh)
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[Sunday
May 8th, 2005
5:35pm] |
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If I am elected, my pope name will be:Pope Flamboyant Larry I |
LOL this is the greatest story ever!!! http://triggur.org/storytime/henry/
Well, anyway I finally got fall out boy's new cd a day before it came out in stores and a FOB jacket(I swear I never take it off, I sleep with this thing on)
I spent all weekend in Mississippi with my home boys(isnt that weird how you dont spell boys like boies like every other word that ends in a y). It was fun, but it went by fast. I finally got to see Cameron after four weeks, it was worth it though.
this entry is lame.
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[Wednesday
April 27th, 2005
3:56pm] |
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1. What is your name?
Kelsey Deathiscool Irion
2. What color underwear are you wearing now?
my school uniform...why? what were you thinking?
3. What are you listening to right now?
FALL OUT BOY
4. What are the last 2 digits of your phone number?
hold on I have it written down somewhere...
5. What was the last thing you ate?
a pizza
6. If you were a crayon what color would you be?
I am a crayon..the blue kind, I also eat crayons. They fear me cause I'm a cannibal!>.>....<.<
7. How is the weather right now?
I dont go outside
8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
camerons answer machine cause Im lonely
like and old man that goes in chatrooms and shows everybody 16yr old sons pic and says it's him
9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
HAIR...and personallity is good...i guess
10. Favorite Food?
med. rare roast beef...yummy i like it bloody.
11. Favorite Drink?
your swwet sweet lovin'
12.Fav Alcoholic Bev?
ew i hate alcoholic, but if i had to pick...irish coffee. It knocks the wind outta ya.
13. Favorite place to shop?
dumpters
14. Hair color:
blonde, brown, and a lil red
15. Eye Color:
really blue
16. Do you wear contacts?
nope
17. Top or Bottom?
TOP
18. Favorite Month?
Feb...i have my reasons
19. Favorite Fast Food?
wendy's
20. Last Movie you Watched?
Scary Movie 2...it really is scarey
21. Favorite Day of the Year?
Martin Luther King Day...He freed all da brothas, he's a G.
22. Are you too shy to ask someone out?
Pfffftttt....NO, but i always get rejected, lol.
23. Summer or Winter?
summer...NO SCHOOL
24. Hugs or Kisses?
SEXXX WITH KRYSIA
25. Chocolate or Vanilla?
I like me some Chocolate
26. Do you want your friends to respond back?
with what? im just doing this cause im pracrastinating from doing my homework lol.
27. Who is most likely to respond?
YO MAMA
28. Who is least likely to respond?
I aint no holla back gurl?
29. What books are you reading?
Limony Snicket...Im on the 8th one. GOOD SHIT, I love me some Violet Baudalaire.
30. Favorite TV Show?
Boy Meets World, Family Guy, Futurama, Aqua Teen Hunger Force, SeaLab, and Even Stevens.
31. What's on your mouse pad?
my ex wifes finger...
32. Favorite board game?
Clue..cause im always the murderer*looks around suspiciously*
33. What did you do last night?
watched movies
34. Favorite Author?
Lemony Snicket
35. Who inspires you?
eveyone, but mostly Krysia and Cameron.
36. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?
Butta
37. Dogs or cats?
African pigimi hedgehogs
38. Favorite Flower?
i think roses are tasty
39. What do you say when you wake up in the A.M.?
SLLLLLLLLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!111oneonewon
40. Do you still talk to your best friends from middle school?
I still have the same best friends from middle school
41. What's on your desk?
a black bow, a peice of paper with FALL OUT BOY written all over it, some cds, and a hooker.
42. Rock Concert or symphony?
Rocks playing in a concert
43. Play or Opera?
Plays...it reminds me of the time me and Iman went to one. LOL
44. Have you ever fired a gun?
No I HATE GUNS........
unless...your talking about these guns..*kisses arm muscles*
45. Do you like to travel by plane?
YEP
46. Right-handed or Left-handed?
.....*looks at hands, breathes hard* NEXT QUESTION
47. Smooth or Chunky Peanut Butter?
PEANUTBUTTER?
48. How many pillows do you sleep with?
...why? None I sleep in a box on the corner of my mind...
49. City and State you were born in?
Pennslyvania
50. Ever hitchhiked?
No ...but i have killed a man...
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[Tuesday
April 26th, 2005
10:58pm] |
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Well, today I felt like I died two weeks ago, and its the second time this has happened. I probably have another cyst. Iman and david took care of me. I fell asleep on david and told him I was dying. For some odd reason I felt like falling out of my chair several times and then they decided to make me go outside. I threw up and then they made me go to the office, which they couldn't contact anyoneto pick me up. I went to 4th period and just distracted everyone from doing their work until I almost fell asleep on the work bench. They finally called me to the office for check out, where I waited for more than 30mins for my mom to pick me up. I have to go to the GENO(ahhhhh!). Well, today was exciting lets just see what tomorrow will bring! ADVENTURE!
P.S. BIG PROPS AND LOVE TO IMAN GIVING ME THIS GREAT LAYOUT! I LOVE YOU FOREVER AND ALWAYS!
P.S.S. FALL OUT BOYS NEW CD WILL COME OUT MAY 3RD! I HAVE A REASON TO LIVE!
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[Tuesday
April 26th, 2005
10:42pm] |
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Bury me in lies/
It's all we know/
Cover me in filth/
It's all we have to show/
One last truth/
To end all the lies/
We all hurt/
Until someone dies/
What do we have to live for/
Besides corpution and hate/
Does anyone really believe in faith?/
Is their any question in you mind/
To go some where else/
To leave it all behind/
Bury me in lies/
Tie it with a bow/
Cover me in filth/
Six feet below/
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[Saturday
March 12th, 2005
2:10pm] |
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if your nose itches and there is no one there to scratch it....does it still itch?
ya, think about that one.
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[Sunday
January 16th, 2005
12:10pm] |
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Man I havent updated in Foeva, but so Krysia can stalk me a little more each day, I will. I tried to use another journal thing cause I dont know anyone that uses diaryland.com, and now I know why... CAUSE IT SUCKS! Well the past week has been exams, blah! And the past few days I've been with Corey ^.^. We saw White Noise which was really good! Krysia was supposed to sleepover last night but no one was answering her phone. I only cried a little I swear.
Ive been having a strange lust to take pictures of everything(ex: a glass with only a little milk left at the bottom and I named it My Glass Is'nt Even Half Full) today.... I dont know what it is I need a cure.
btw way I thing the monster on my ovary is dying down. YaY!
wtf I was watching this old movie and this girls boyfriend found out her mom was black eventhough she looked white, so he beat the shiznit outta her....dont judge me
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[Monday
December 20th, 2004
9:01pm] |
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Today was cool I got some awesome presents from Adam and Kayla (thanks guys). Me, Iman, and Kayla went to go stalk the guy in the library again (lol that was funny we actually sat next to him!) We arent stalkers I swear *pushes*. Koi also made the bad mistake of putting Ludo on he mp3 muhahaha!!!
Well anyway Friday I went to the mall with with Ashley, her boyfriend, and Clayton. I spent most of my time with Clayton since Ashley was with her bf. We had a lot of fun, accept they dragged me in to hollister(gag me with a butterknife), but all in all I did my damage muahahahaha!!! Then we saw A SERIES OF UNFORTUNATE EVENTS!!!!!!!! HOLY CRAP IT WAS AWESOME!!!!! I watched it all on a booster seat too...lol.
THEN Saturday ashley left and I went to Cypress Hall. Me, Krysia, and Kayla all went and it was awesome!!!! We talked to Cinema City and The Silent Game two really cool bands (even though I think that the lead singer of Cinema City is now scared of me LOL...dont ask) Me and Krysia bought Cinema City t-shirts and we are NEVER gonna wash them!....I know you like it Nick. We were also messing around with this drunk guy, Justin aka just in case(lol Kayla). I slept over at Krysia's after we escaped from the grasp of my parents. Then Sunday I helped Krysia put up some decorations(even though we were more skanking than decorating lol). My baby came over later and we went to the mall (Krysia and Pat Pat was supposed to meet us but they didnt *pokes in eye*), it was packed and I also was cursing out fye...poor Corey, hehe. We went back to my plizace and we watched Harry Potter... I swear we're cool.
"It isnt right For Krysia to look at Cinema City's picture every night... But she do...
Its funny but wrong To make fun of Krysia in this song...
But I know that she will.... Hum Along!"
-Ludo spoof LOL
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[Friday
December 17th, 2004
3:07pm] |
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hey kiddies,
Today at school was so damn funny! Me, Iman, and Kayla were all eating lunch and we randomly decided to stalk this guy that we notice alone all the time in the library. LOL so we went to the library, and of course right when i walk through the giant heavy door it closes on me! So everyone looks at us. We signed in and we noticed the guy sitting at the computers. Then we put down our books and started walking towards the computers and then Kayla starts cracking up laughing so i turn and look at her and I started to crack up laughing too. The librarian lady was all "yall need to sit down"...so we just held it in and started towards the back of the bookcases and we started laughing so loud my stomach hurt. After me, Kayla, and Iman lost eachother in the mase of bookcases we all found eachother and made another attempt to the computers (eventhough the guy already sat at one of the tables, but we didnt want to look too obvious) So I stole the Iman's summer reading list and I went to go look up one of the books on the sheet. The librarian then told me to sit at a surtain computer and I looked up the book as she watched over my shoulder(I dont think she likes me too much lol). Well I got the book and by that time the guy was starting to get up and leave. Then the bell rang! Oh well, we'll get him next time! He probably already found us out because Iman and Kayla kept looking and pointing at him...he started looking at us too and whispering to his friend lol. Either way it was great!
A SERIES OF UNFORTUNATE EVENTS COMES OUT TODAY!!!!! I THINK I MIGHT GO SEE IT WITH ASHLEY OR AT LEAST SOMEONE OR I'LL DIE!!!!
Have a good weekend people and don't forget to floss!
(too bad we have to go back to school monday =/)
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[Wednesday
December 15th, 2004
8:46pm] |
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Wow...a lot happened today! Not really I lied. So anyway...Krysia hasnt called me all day, so Ill end up having another lonely night of crying till I slowly fall into a dreamless sleep.
Corey called me late too, but thats only because his step mom's car broke down. Haha sucks for you Corey!
The only thing I did in spanish class today was run around with Adam's ROTC hat...but at least I did somthing in that class. Its absolutly pointless I havent learned any spanish at all. Wanna see hpw much spanish i know...HOLA! DAMIT HOLA! GO TO HELL MS. RICHMOND YOU CANT TEACH GOD! I HATE THE WORLD INCLUDING YOUR STUPID SPANISH CLASS...I took my sex test today...a whole hour of staring at a penis...wonderful.
I look into your eyes as if I were searching for our star in the midnight skies.
-cries-
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